My Story

 

I’ve lived many lives in one body.

 

I was born into a high-control religious group where individuality was forbidden, questions were dangerous, and authenticity came at the cost of love and belonging. I learned early on how to hide my true self — my queerness, my doubts, my dreams — because survival depended on it.

 

But you can only live in the shadows for so long before your soul demands to be seen.

 

When I came out as transgender, I lost almost everything I thought I needed to feel safe — my family, my faith community, and the only version of “home” I’d ever known. In the wreckage, I turned to alcohol to numb the pain of rejection and the trauma I carried from years of silence, abuse, and unspoken grief. Addiction consumed me. There were nights I didn’t think I’d make it out alive.

 

But I did.

 

Through recovery, trauma healing, and a spiritual awakening that transformed everything I thought I knew, I found my way back to myself. I discovered that healing is not about becoming someone new — it’s about remembering who you truly are, reclaiming the parts of yourself you were taught to hide, and learning to live in alignment with your deepest truth.

 

Today, I am more than a survivor. I am a storyteller, an author, a podcaster, and a lightworker. My work is for the outcasts, the dreamers, the queer souls, and the ones who’ve had to shove their light into a box it was never meant to fit. I write for anyone standing in the in-between — between pain and healing, between who they were and who they’re becoming.

 

My books, my podcast, and this space exist to remind you of one thing:

You are worthy. You are whole. And you are never as lost as you think you are.

— Aidan Phoenix